Between me and you... I feel a chemistry... (my friends first dance song... keep reading...)
Writing you
all from a JetBlue flight on the way to San Fran. I just had a long day
yesterday. I was still drunk off excitement (and rum punches with wray
and nephew) at seeing one of my favorite people marry her best friend
(then work got real and reminded me I had a conference the next day).
But, it was the kinda of wedding where you watched how much they loved
each other and you wanted to block everyone in your phone cause you just
KNOW they ain't s*. Where someone text you and you roll your eyes in
the Uber home. The kinda love where any thoughts you might have had
about settling were wiped away with the happy tears you shed.
I
get asked at least 3 times a week (seriously) why I am single. My usual
answer is "IDK but I'm sure I have a few men I used to date that would
give you a list." *coughsomeofyallknowthemcough* But, in reality, the
answer varies. Some days I think it's cause I ain't ish (leave me alone.
No one is positive every minute of every day. Anyone who is a
psychopath. IDC IDC IDC). Other days, I think its cause cause everyone
is crazy (other days = every day). But days like this.... these special
days where the magic of love is in the air heavy, I'm reminded that if
he's not gonna rap Ja Rules part on "Put it on me" and gas me to spit
Vita's, I don't want it. Settling is not an option.
The
new year is coming up, and one of my biggest goals is not to settle.
Not just with significant others, cause honestly, that's not a priority
as of right now, but just in life. I think of all the times I settle for
a wack meal because I didn't want to go the extra mile to get it from
that special place, or up my work out to justify it. Or the times I
bought the ok dress because I didn't want to spend the extra money on
myself ( which is crazy because if I don't deserve me spending my own
money on me then who does?). A lot of times we say we don't want to
settle but don't want to put in the work to deserve what we THINK we
deserve. How you want the God and the universe to go the extra mile to
provide but you're not willing to do the same?
So
as I hit you with this late email, I hope you take a look at where you
feel is life is lacking a little, and evaluate if the lack is really on
your end. (Sometimes life is just life and it isn't your fault... and
that where you can't lack on the patience and prayer).
Note - And if y'all have any tall single friends that listen to Ja Rule and aren't Aquarius or African, show them my IG :)
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