Friday, May 19, 2017

Just a quick rant

I knew what I was going to write about on Friday, but God loves to really solidify things for me with random epiphanys. Yes, I meant to spell it like that (some of you will get that joke). One of my sisters (by God, not DNA) received her MBA this weekend. I am so proud of her. Her (real) sister threw her a surprise party and her closest family and friends were there. We spent a good 45 minutes going around the room telling her how much we loved her - and there were so many tears of gratitude, from all of us. One of the best feelings is to hear how much people are appreciate/grateful for you. I said to her, I hope this gives you the ammo to consistently remind yourself how amazing you are (it didn't come out as eloquent because we were all crying like an Iyanla: Fix My Life episode but that's the gist).

Rewind (some more) - Remember the Shine affirmations I told you to sign up for? Well, if you joined, Friday's message was " It's easy to notice external things in our lives... but we often struggle to extend the same courtesy to ourselves. Go internal today Sioban"

OK- rewind (some more..more)... last Tuesday (after I sent a delayed newsletter) I went on twitter and said how I know you guys read them but I never really know if you value them. Of course people said they did and I felt a bit reassured. And I said to myself, why can't I reassure myself. I was almost to the point where I was gonna start sending these less. Then that happened and I was renewed and came to my senses (see subject). I need to be my biggest cheerleader versus my biggest critic. Then Friday's message comes. Then Saturday happens. And my sister's friend said how much she likes the emails (cause my friend forwards them to her) and again I'm shocked. I obviously didn't learn my lesson yet.

SN- Your kind words never fall on deaf ears. They are appreciated more than you guys can ever know.  And hi to the new people!

OK - the point of this long personal intro? We are human. We get discouraged. Often. However, training ourselves to be gentle on ourselves is how we move forward. I became this hoodrat hippie because I was OVERCOME by negativity. I knew I needed a change but I didn't know how to make it better. I was looking for it a magic pill, or a book, or in others (friends, family, lovers - and I use that term loosely), but it had to be me. It wasn't a miracle. It was a conscious daily effort to make the decision to be happy. I write these emails to help others, but they mean so much to myself as well. So we in this jawn together.

OK- Rant over.

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